I guess we're doing like, an end of days essay or something, that I read on a topic? Or something? Well, here's my final dump, so take it. I suppose its appropriate that I'm doing this drunk, as my major contribution was a permastickied drunk posting topic in SeMe. At least I've leaned how to type.
So, looks like I joined...May, 2005. Maaaaaan. That puts me at 16 years old when I joined. Sophomore. I felt pretty young at the time, I'd heard of RSC for about a year but hadn;t joined. I wasn;t the youngest at SeMe; I think that was Bulgy? a couple years younger? Who got it before me.
So I joied Runescape in 2003, just a couple week shy of getting bunny ears, in 2003.Got the scythe that halloween though! I played on a site called Popcap, just a ****ty Flash game site, which limited levels to 30. I sent a customer sjpport message, and they told me to play from Runescape to get past the cap, so I did. Eventually, I met a guy called dedmenwalkn, who started a clan called.......****en ****, I don't remmeber. I t was some army or ranger themed clan? Man, make this public, let somebody tell me what it was. Anyway, he got busy irl, and decided to merge our clan with Demonic Legends, lead by General Shop, and we became Awaken. (Milap, if you're out there, my oath of eternal loyalty is still valid and I will follow you to irl death). That was really my heyday. Awaken. I joined RSC then to support my clan on the topics, for whateve I could.
The chronology escapes me at this point, but eventually, I made some kind of fprum mod or something on VR's website. Shop messages me while I was fighting at dagannoths, shortly after we merged, to say "I'm kicking you from the clan". I responded "?" and he said "j/k you seem cool".
A couple months after I joined RSC, I leanred the hierarchy here, and I thought to myself, I'd like to be a senior emmeber. This was because of mental issues that I still carry where I have to prive myself, over and over and over, and I wanted ti prove - I was intelligent enough, I was good enough, I mattered enough, that I could be a Senior Member. So I set out to post as frequently and intelligently as I ould, to brownnose my way into it.
Well, as much as a ******** as I am, I do have some things to pride myself in, and I do have a good vocabulary and I know how to us eit. It wasn't long before I was made a Marketplace Community Leader. I believe Damea was my predecssor, and Colton my leader. A guy called Bayney or something was my senior pee. I was also soon joined by Phoenix something o other, who is now knows as PZ., from Phoenix Zero.
I was high. I read my responsibilities and dedicated myself to my boards. I didn't know much about selling stuff, but I knew how to follow instructions and rules, and I went abive and beyoudn to rack those actions up and keep the Marketplace clean. I kind of...viewed PZ as a friendly rival at the time. I would prove myself begtter.
Werll, that didn't work. He gor Seme, and posted a warm congratulations. Eventually, he was promoted to Mod, and I was promoted to Seme, and I posted a warm congratulations. It was at this point, I realized, he'd won. Mod was as high as regular progresson went - SeMo and abive were considered admins, and were only given on a case by case basis. Even if I mde Mod, he'd have gottn there first. I didn't say any of this, of course. PZ and I were friends. I genuinely liked him, and I still do. Truly, sincerely, he deserved the promotions he got, while I was adequate, but could not compete. I eventually made Mod, while he made SeMo, and after a few years I...well, everything, irl and online, turned out to be ****, and I never recovered. I guess I'm an Hmem now, because managed to make a red bar before collapsing.
I mentioend Bayney earlier? he invited me to support site, called TEO, The Enlightened Ones. It was mostly a forum for assholes who belived themselves smarter than everybody else. Well, I mean, that's not wrong; most of the people posting were dum****s who couldmn't spell right as a sober teenager, or cnstruct a entence right. Quality was **** then.
Awaken eventuallhy merged with soemthingto become Violent Resolution, and I spent most of my time in that clan. Still loyal.
I think the last tiem I actively played Runescape was 2012. Wasalright. But I just dodn;t have the energy for it anymre. 24 years old. Everything was ****. College failed, team mmeber at Target, my attempts cfor a decade to be good enough that somebody, ANYBODY would find me good enough to ****, even if I had to pay thousands of dollar sfor it failed; I gave up on that stuff years ago.
Well. Anyway. Maybe I'll say more if I think of it, but...sigh. Hell. This was a hel of a site for me for quite while. A lot of memories. I made mod. Higher than I initlialy planned, as I only intended seme. Perpetually inferior to my rival, PZ, who was much better than me. To be hnest, I probably would have suicided at some point were it not for the affirmation that my somewhat-success on this site gave me.
I made lots of friends here. Lots of memories. Fir quite awhile, this was the central part of my life. This was my peer group. And now it's ending and...yeah, you get older and decay, and stuff like this happens, but it still hurts, you know? I love you guys. I love what this site did for me. It gave me a place, when an ugly, autsitic retard didn't have any other place. Gave me some pride, when everything else I ever did failed. Without reservation, I can say, the time on this site was the best Ive ever had, and probably has saved my life to this point.
If there's something else going on, someplace we're jumping off to, I'm interested. Might as well keep this running as far as I can.
I'll add to this as I feel like. Mods can decide to make public whatever you want. I don't care. Censor what you want, redcat what ypu want, keep it all seme, whatever.
Oh!Yeah! I think my t+3 came from Wibble saying "interesting post."
So, I was friends with mod FDenixangel. Somethin g had happened with hus..friend G4lfirend? Tenshi, a SeMe, strpped her of CL status. I don't remember exacty what, but my discussion with FA lead to me posting a topic in RSC Discussion, calling out MDW for tyrannical behavior. It got deltdd, and I expected to be banned, but I guess I got lucky and W13 say my pist and intervened.
Btw: MDW, you're an asshole, but god damn was I ver a white straoght privileged male assole, myself. I still think I was right, a god damn fansite didn't need to be ruled with an iron fist, but you aint exactly on a list of SailorMoon villains. Bury the hatchet?
Sa,e for Livinghell. I'm basically you now. Sorry I was such an ass****. I'm trying to do better, bit whiteness and middle classnessness and maleness aren't easy to move past. So I'm sure I'm still gross in lots of ways.
Edited again? ybez content tam. I can't remeber the exact timeframe, but apaprently I was the Database Crew Team Lead at one point. I didn't remember that, thought I was a regular member.I know I contibuted a lot of mnster screenshots, inconvenient thing nobody else wanted to try to get a decebt pic of. My leader, Jeremy, I interviewed him for a college essay. It was ****. I am no good at asrcribing values to people uness I hate the, and Jeremy was my friend. I eventually went incactive and my Zybez oermissions were revoked...how sad.
Once more. XORGNITFARC! Craftingrox. Yo. I am ashamed that I left you to this late edit. You were my oldest RSC friend. Justin. Dude. I think I deleted you from my facebook, but if you're still around, hit me up. You ad me, man. You and me.
McShieldSniper, man, those late-night MRC (I think that was the name), convos we used to have woth all the guys. Right after Justin, you were my boi. Talk to me man. Ask Yoto or Justin for my Facebook.
Edited by Yoto32, 14 September 2018 - 10:06 PM.